45 1/2 inches (95%).
45 lbs (75%).
Kindergarten shots (check).
Love note to her doctor: "❤️ love Genevieve graham" (check).
Eyes 20/20 with "glasses" (check).
mostly nice and lots of spice (check).
Sucker for being brave (check).
To my five year old girl,
There were many days and lots of nights when you were in my stomach I couldn't imagine a day I wouldnt be pregnant. It felt like it would last forever. Then you were born and I couldn't see a day past dirty diapers and gummy smiles. When you turned one I felt like you would still be little forever. I thought our quiet days at home together would never change. I remember sitting on the front porch together on a particularly rainy day in May my belly swollen tight, your brothers birth just around the corner. I remember getting a bowl of bird seed out, measuring cups and spoons and watching the concentration on your round face as you carefully spooned the birdseed. It was a warm day for May, despite the rain, and I sat on the cement steps watching you quietly make a huge mess. I rubbed my belly and thought somehow this will never change.
Finley was born and years have ticked by one by one and quickly I realized no matter how hard it is to believe my babies will grow up, things do change and I know I will be thinking the same thing on your wedding day as I am today... Where did the time go?
I have come to the conclusion that time is so unfair. A double edge sword, it erases the past, the hurt and sorrow but also the joy and memories you think you will hold dear to your heart forever. There are moments I look at you and think "I will never forget the way she laughs with her tiny baby teeth and a burst of joy" and yet time moves and on and so do we and those small and precious things are forgotten.
I will miss that smile still full of baby teeth. Your laugh that comes straight from your soul. The way you look at me with those big brown eyes, hold my face between your hands and kiss me. The feel of your baby fine hair matted with sweat from a good nights sleep. Your imagination. The way you ride your little bike quickly down the street as your Elsa cape blows behind. I will miss this Genevieve. My little Genevieve. I will miss your long skinny legs and knobby knees. Teaching you how to read. I will miss seeing the world through your five year old eyes. I will miss it all.
i recognize now there is only one chance to enjoy these moments. Because they do come and go and more quickly then you realize. For the days are long and the years are short.
Happy fifth birthday. You are my best friend, my little companion, my worst enemy, my greatest joy and heartache. You are what makes my world go round... Whether you are five or fifty.
I love you.
The many things Genevieve says:
12/2013 4 years old: Genevieve while I was gone in NYC for two weeks to my neighbor:
Genevieve told me that she saw you last night. I asked her if you did face time with her. She said no, I saw her in my dreams.
2014 Four years old Genevieve: Today in fast and testimony meeting as people kept standing up and baring their testimony Genevieve looked up and so innocently and loudly asked: "daddy why are they all saying so many prayers?"
2014 Genevieve 4 years old: As I drove Genevieve to dance class, girls all piled into the back seat busily chattering away, I hear Genevieve ask "Haley do you like my shoes?" "I got these on a girls day out with my Grammie and mom" "my Grammie is old, not really really old, just kind of old. She's not about to die but she's just kind of old, like an old lady." I was laughing so so hard.
1/2014 4 yrs old
Genevieve's talk in primary
I can be like Jesus:
By being nice
Picking up my toys
Not blow bubbles in my drink
Follow his example
By being patient
Going to church and the temple